Happy Birthday Daddy!

The other day I was very stressed out. It was a day or two away from taking my Part IV Boards. I was very near to the braking point. I needed Dad, he was all I could think about and the only one I wanted to talk to. I wanted to ask him how he kept on going all those years. When the world seemed like it was closing in on you and the stress level could not be raised any further. I needed some advice on how he did it. I decided to pull myself from my studying that wasn't getting accomplished anyway and get some fresh air. Finding myself alone in a ally way the feelings of abandonment and just plan old missing him could not be pushed away. I broke down like the moments after I first found out he was gone. I called mom/dads cell phone a couple of times just to hear his voice. If only I could have one more moment with him. I did feel his presents there as I cried but this time it wasn't strong enough to make me feel better, but it did help to remind me that he watches me and is with me more than I realize.
Needless to say I made it through that awful day and I know I was able to get through it because of Dads help. May we all be able to find strength in the life he lived and not the last moments of it, is my wish and my prayer.
To my Dad: I miss you everyday. I think of you everyday and I will never stop trying to be the man you want me to be. I love you! Happy birthday.
Your son,
Toby